solemn memory of the heart

And so i
r
u
n
speed, picking up speed
to catch you up

Wait. i huffed.with that you were g-o-n-e.
a mirage...juz toying with my mind
my heart

a sickened feeling in the stomache
the wrenching of my heart
the regrets that nagged my back
i was not the son that you would have want.

thus
i shed a tear or two
in remembrance of the times spent with you
The love and that aura that embodies you
i want to touch you.
i want to be spoilt by you again.
i want to be loved once more
i want to talk to you
i want to hear you laugh

Don't look down from where you are
Im not who you want to be
Yet
no not yet
But if you were to..
Don't you shed a tear for me
Don't you worry
For i still love you so
For I still send that prayer for you

This heart, etched deep
with the carvings of your name
This mind, keeps pouring
of you, every bits that i noe of you.

FOr that is what i have left
Your legacy......




Today is 4 days away from Hari Raya. Today is 6 days away from my first paper. Today is that day, 5 years ago, when it felt like someone just tore out a piece of my heart..i love you so.